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Showing posts with label canada. Show all posts
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Monday, September 4, 2017

Liberty The Beautiful

Dream 9/4/2017




Back with Liberty. It's a wonder, even after I've been gone for so long, it still hasn't left me. My memories have been replaced, however, with my nightly dreams. Hello fourth wall.

I walk into class. My teacher is Canadian. I can't remember her name. I look around the room. Everyone is writing in their notebooks. They write a verse and draw a picture. I have no idea what the assignment is but I guess I better look like I am busy. I rip out my notebook and start drawing a picture of E.T.. I have to say, the picture is actually not bad. I never thought of myself as artistic.

I look up from my drawing and realize that most people have left the class. The bell hasn't rung. I instantly know that people are roaming the hallways, skipping class.

In another class now. The teacher calls up one of my fellow classmates, Roman Reigns. In my mind, I know that he is hated, but I feel like being a troll. I start chanting, "Roman! Roman! Roman! Roman!" Others in the class join in. Several other wrestlers have come today to put on a show.

I go to the gym and sit down but everyone in the gym scatters elsewhere. Some run outside. I follow. When I exit the building, I observe a line of hot rod cars in the parking lot. They are the only cars that I see. The wrestlers are going to race them later.

I've lost my jacket. It is a beige coat. I must've left it in class. I return to class where a substitute teacher starts talking my ear off. I ask if my coat is in here. I grab one but it isn't mine.

I walk down to where the kids used to be served lunches. I stand in the doorway for a moment. I look around. I've been away for so long. So many years. This school used to be my life. Everyday I would walk it's halls. I would learn it's lessons. Now, I have nothing to do with it and it has nothing to do with me. I think to myself how could I be more involved? I could become a teacher. No. I don't want to be a teacher. I could become a janitor.

Here it comes again. My sadness. My depression. What did I do to deserve this. Day in and day out it comes to visit me. It seems to be my most loyal companion these days.

I look at a yellow sign covered in laminate. It looks old. I wonder if my mom was the person who posted it years ago. If she posted it, then I had to be in 6th grade. No. 5th grade. Maybe 4th. That seems to be about the right time. Dream ends.

I wake up

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Foreign Relations

Dream 3/20/2017




     My family and me are visiting Canada. One day, we decide to eat at a fancy, two-story restaurant. My sister Morgan gets lost in the restaurant so I try to find her. A man, probably the host, shows me around. I spend all my time looking for her when she was eating with the family all along. Now the family is done eating. I regret not dining with them. Nothing stings like regret. I wave at a cute woman as her and her boyfriend walk out. She says something about a hottie over there, talking about me. She walks over to our table and tells her boyfriend to close his eyes. she goes in to kiss me and pulls back. Then she goes in again and kisses me on the lips, slobbering all over me.

     I am in Peru, sick as a dog, sleeping in a disease ridden bed, hoping to get back home to America.

     A ton of teenagers occupy my old church in Anderson, Indiana. New life church is a now a big volleyball court. All of the older kids are playing and partying late into the night. It is my bedtime but I stay out. I don't feel comfortable around the older kids. I feel very self conscious.

     My friend Joel Doty is up on stage playing a song he has written. I am holding his old guitar that he gave me once upon a time. He steps off the stage and starts talking to me as I put his old guitar in its case. I have trouble latching one of the buckles on the case.

     A parent of one of the kids puts a movie on the projector. He wants everyone to see it. I'm not completely sure what it is about except it has to do with injustice in some form. I lean over to the kid and tell him, "if you think this is bad, you should've seen me in Peru." Dream ends.

I wake up.